Wednesday, April 18, 2007
What's Wrong With This Picture?
Sorry I have been MIA again lately. There have been plenty of topics to write about but no time to sit and complete a coherent thought. Take your pick...stomach virus? Puke? Birthday party? Cake decorating classes? More puke? Anyone takers? I thought so.
But that I will save for another day. My dilemma today is this and I apologize if it is TMI for some of you but this is afterall my blog so sorry if I offend...
I could care less about sex.
It's horrible and it is causing major problems with my marriage. It has nothing to do with my love or attraction to my husband. I love him with all my heart and I still think he is a sexy as he was the day I met him. I just have absolutely no interest. I'm not really even sure why. The only think I can think of is I am so tired and preoccupied with everything that I have to do on a daily basis that I can't let myself relax enough to get in the right mindset. And I have never been one of those kinds of do it anywhere-anytime kind of girls.
I thought that once a woman hit her 30's that her libido was supposed to increase? Mine has done the complete opposite. Since I have had the kids, it just doesn't interest me anymore. I wish I could say it is my medication, but the prescription ran out and I haven't been back to the Dr. to get more. So I really have no clue as to what is going on other than my husband is VERY unhappy with me right now and rightfully so.
I know that it is something that I have to get over if I want our marriage to work. And I want it to work- more than I want anything in the world. I just don't know where to start. AM spent the night on the couch last night after another one of my rejections.
*(Honey~ if you are reading this I am truly sorry and I feel like total dog shit. You aren't asking too much for me to show you a little love and affection. I'm not going to go on and on with a bunch of promises because you say you have heard them all before. All I will say is that actions WILL speak louder than words for a change. I LOVE YOU!)*
At this point I am just at a loss for where to start, but I know that start I must. I guess I should call and make an appointment with Dr. O soon. I need a yearly physical anyway. I just want to be able to make AM happy and I know that this isn't too much to ask of me. I am his wife and the last thing I want is for him to search out someone who will give him what I won't.
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