I have some to the realization that I have to face it...I am never having anymore kids. Becoming a parent has reduced me to a giant pile of mush when in the presense of babies. Even seeing one born on TV (ex: 7th Heaven this past Monday night) brings be to a sob fest.

I think it has to do with the permanence that I will NEVER have any more children. While I certainly have my hands full with the two that I have and I love them dearly, if things were different (more money, bigger house, etc) I would love to have at least one more. I'm crazy I know. I just LOVE being pregnant! Even though my last one hurt like hell (epidural had worn off), I would do it all again. But DH has gotten the big V so no more for me. It really hit me the other night. And my baby is growing up so fast that I know before I can blink they will be gone.
I have thought about becoming a surrogate, but I know I could never live with myself. Feeling the baby inside me and then having to just give it away? There is no way I could handle it. I really think that is what I miss the most about being pregnant. It is just the most intimate moment with you child. While others can feel them moving from the outside~ it almost like your little secret because no one else would ever know they were moving if you didn't tell them.
Somestimes I dream of the day when I "have my life back" but I cherish my time with my children too. Who said being a Mom was easy?

My daughter is now 2 and driving me crazy! I wish I could have taken a picture of her last night. She insisted on wearing her hat to bed. What a goofy girl. Did I mention that the hat is for a 6-12 month old?!? The sad thing is it still fits her LOL! She's a peanut though.

My son is 9 months old now. I can't believe he will be a year soon. After months of worrying about him not talking, he has certainly caught up. He sits and babbles (or should I say yells) all day. It is the cutest thing. And he is SOOOO close to crawling. He can get up on his knees and will rock back and forth. He just doesn't know what to do with his arms yet. He has strabismus surgery on his eyes February 20th. Please say a prayer that everything goes well and that it will be successful.

I am having 3 wisdom teeth and 6 cavities filled tomorrow. OH THE FUN! So I doubt I will be posting for a little while. Not that I post daily anyway. Keep your fingers crossed that it isn't too painful. Anyone out there had it done recently? How bad is it really? They have given me a prescription of valium so I hoping that it will make it so I could care less. I'm sure I will survive!

Anyway, got to go!