Let the drama continue.

For those that have been keeping up with the Christmas Aunt saga...it doesn't end at my last post. After the initial message on the machine I called her back and told her that it wasn't a big deal. That I thought that having Christmas at my house would be easier (especially for me with the kids) but that we could/would come to her house and to let me know when and what to bring. I totally expected her to call me back saying that "Dinner is at one..blah blah blah". Boy was I wrong.

The next morning she called and left another message on my answering machine stating again that she already had the food and people were planning on coming to her house like they had the last 15 years. She would send the kids' presents with my Mom. She wanted her Dad at her house for Christmas. Sounds like she really wants me there huh?

I guess I am a glutton for punishment. I called and cried to my Mom for awhile last night and asked her to find out what Aunt's problem is since I am a non-confrontational chicken. Mom thinks that I need to just show up if nothing else but spite. Part of me wants to. Who does she think she is to basically tell me that I can't spend Christmas with my family. But the other part of me (and my gut instinct too) tells me that I don't need to waste my time and be somewhere that I am obviously NOT wanted. Of course, Mom calls and leaves her a message telling her that she really hurt my feelings and that she needs to think about what she wants and if she can be nice about the situation she needs to call me, but if not then don't bother. I don't know about you, but I can pretty much guess where that will go.

I hate feeling like this. What the hell have I really done to her? All that she has a "problem" with was between my grandparents and me. It has absolutely nothing to do with her. I know I shouldn't give her the power, but she makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. My family here in the Carolinas is small and to not see them is breaking my heart. I can't remember a time that I didn't get to spend it with family. I know that I have a family of my own now, but they are my family too. Rock and a hard place much?

I still haven't decided what I am going to do. I probably won't until Christmas morning. I pretty much have decided that if she doesn't call me back (and play nice) then I WON'T be going over there. I also know that next year I will not be going over there. We started having Christmas at her house because she had small children. Her kids are now in high school. So, based upon that criteria, it's my turn now. If she doesn't want to come then fine.

I so sound like a spoiled brat huh? Am I being ridiculous? What would you do? (ok, ERin I already know what you would do ;) )