All I can say is WTF? After this past weekend, I thought that things were starting to look up for me. Man was I wrong. I don't know what is going on, but stop the train cause I want to get off!

The weekend was great (well sort of). DH went to Cherokee for the night with his Dad. The kids and I went over to MIL's to hang out until the kids went to bed. She volunteered to keep them so that meant a night all alone and I got to sleep in the next day. WONDERFUL! We watched North County. It was ok, but not great.


Then there's Monday.

Those of you who know me, know that DH and I go to Cherokee to the Harrah's casino a lot (about once a month); especially in the fall/winter since the IL's are home to watch to kids. Heck, wouldn't you go for a free weekend in a 4 star hotel, with everything included (meals & concert tickets)? I think so. I don't go to gamble much, I might spend $40 maybe; I would rather stay in the room and sleep, read or watch TV. Well, I get called into my supervisor's office yesterday afternoon. Basically, he believes that DH and I have a gambling problem. "I have been distracted lately, my work hasn't been up to my normal standards, and we go to Cherokee too much." I was banking comp time for Dr. visits and general time off since I don't have a lot of vacation time due to taking the kids to the Dr. and maternity leave. I was told that I could bank time for Dr visits but not for taking time off to go out of town. That is a load of bull, since when does he dictate where I can go with the leave I have earned? He even went so far as to recommend that DH go to the EAP (Employee Assistance Program) and that DH is gambling away money that my kids need. I wanted to defend myself and my husband. My kids have never gone without and it greatly offends me that he would insinuate that they do. Compared to other couples, we have outstanding credit and never low debt. And besides, what business it is of theirs anyway?

I am pretty sure I know where his "source" is coming from but that is fine. I will do my job and go home. I will keep my mouth shut and no one will know anything else about me. Making me work harder is going to make them work harder too, but that's fine by me. Whatever. I am so hurt and I feel so betrayed. After working here for 6 years, I thought that there were certain people that I could trust and have a "friendship" with but I guess not. There are two people that I can talk to here and that's it. That is really sad that I can't have camaraderie with these people. I thought I was going to work here forever and retire an old lady, but now I am beginning to wonder.

Anyway, today is another day. Live and let die right?